Cwmderi Diary 2018: 14 September 2018

Elgan prepares the meal

Elgan is preparing the meal when Gaynor returns home, after the first week of the new term;

"How am I going to keep going until half-term?"

she does not know how she will keep going until half-term.

"Sit down and relax"

He tells her she can forget about it for the weekend and pours her a glass of wine; he does not know when they will be eating, as Sofia is going to be late, as she was shopping in Swansea.

Gaynor does not react well to the news

Gaynor was not aware that Sofia was coming;

"Didn't I tell you?"

“Didn’t I tell you? We made arrangements the other day,” Elgan says, and she attempts to look pleased.

She rapidly fabricates an excuse

Then she suddenly discovers, “I’ve left my laptop in school – and I’ve got lots of work to finish before Monday.

"I'll stay in school to finish the work"

“I’ll stay in school to finish the work, then I can forget about it over the weekend.” She hurries out of the front door, much to Elgan’s disappointment.

"No, I made the right decision"

Non checks her phone, and Ricky asks if she has heard from DJ; “Do you regret cancelling that date?” She denies this, and maintains that she made the right decision, as there is no point starting something with DJ, because it will not last.

"Why do you do this to yourself?"

“Why do you do this to yourself?” Ricky demands, “You’re an amazing girl – I love having you here, you make everyone laugh, you’re kind – why don’t you see that?”

"That's not true, Ricky"

She simply responds that it is not true.

"Why don't you text him?"

Ricky insists, “You’re a fool if you give up so easily – text him!” When she refuses, he picks up her phone and does it for her.

"What did you do that for?"

“Sorry for cancelling – do you want to try again?” he types, adding, “You’ll be thanking me later.”

Mark comes downstairs, and Non angrily tells him, “Your son’s an idiot – he texted DJ from my phone!”

"I'm going to meet Chester tonight"

Mark asks Ricky if he wants to watch a film tonight, but is told he is going to meet Chester, and is going to the cinema.

"You're not going – I heard what he did!"

This meets with his father’s vehement disapproval; “You’re not going – I heard what he did, trashing Sara’s and Jason’s house for no reason. I don’t want you mixing with someone like him – you have a bright future, unlike him!”

"Look, he's in a mess since Hannah dumped him"

Ricky points out that Chester is in a mess since Hannah dumped him, but Mark is of the opinion, “He’s a selfish little brat – I don’t want you anywhere near him – understand?”

Chester sleeps off his over-indulgence

Having been drinking, Chester is sleeping it off on the sofa when Garry returns unexpectedly, and rudely awakens him.

Dani must have got the hang of the camper-van already

“We’re going to have a chat,” Garry informs him, and when Chester objects,

"Sort it out now – or go home to live with your Mam!"

he adds, “Do you want to sort things out with me now, or go home to live with your mother?”

In the street, Ffion meets Non, who is looking at her phone;

"Can I have a word with you, Ffion?"

then she passes Eifion, who is sitting on the bench, and would like a word with her. He wants to explain,

"You lied about Cadno having the affair!"

but Ffion points out that he lied about Cadno having the affair.

"It's not as straightforward as that"

“It’s not as straightforward as that – I want to tell you what happened,” he pleads, so she tells him to come to the flat in about an hour.

"You trashed the house – because Sara laughed at you?"

Garry has been told about Chester’s exploit; “That’s why you trashed the house – because Sara laughed at you?” Chester replies he did not realise it was a joke, and it was so embarrassing.

A photo of the Cuddly Koala Bear

He shows Garry the koala bear on his phone,

Garry finds it hilarious

and Garry finds it highly amusing, remarking, “I was just the same at your age.

"I hurt a lot of people"

“I hurt a lot of people – and myself – I lost control easily, not quite knowing why.”

"Did you trash a house because someone was laughing at you?"

“Did you trash a house because someone was laughing at you?” asks Chester, “How did you get through it?”

Garry does not think you ever get through it unscathed.

"I kept my mind off it by stealing cars . . ."

“What I did was to try and find something that kept my mind off the things that made me angry – like stealing cars – but I’m not suggesting you do that!

". . . but I doubt your mother would be pleased"

“I doubt your mother would be very pleased. Seriously though, that is what you have to do – find something to put all your energy into.

"Come and work for me in the taxi office"

“Why don’t you come and work for me, in the taxi office?”

"I'll only screw it up!"

Chester fears that he would only screw it up, but Garry expresses confidence in him.

"Gaynor should be home by now"

Out in the garden at Llwyncelyn, Elgan leaves a message for Gaynor, asking how she is getting on with her work, and remarks to Sofia that she should be home by now; “Being a headteacher is a big responsibility these days,” he says,

"She may not want to have dinner with us"

but Sofia suggests that she may not want to have dinner with them.

“It must be difficult for her – you and me reminiscing about the good old days in Cambridge,” she explains, “I get the impression that she feels a bit left out sometimes.” This causes Elgan to think.

Eifion is rather hesitant

Eifion arrives at Cysgod y Glyn, apprehensively sits down and thanks Ffion for letting him in; she asks why he did not tell people the truth.

"Colin assumed – and I didn't correct him"

“Colin assumed that Cadno had the affair, and I didn’t bother correcting him,” is his answer, “There’s a lot more to it than you know – there was no other woman.”

"If you're going to carry on telling lies . . ."

Ffion tells him that he might as well go, if he is going to carry on telling lies,

"There was no other woman – it was a man!"

so he eventually admits, “There was no other woman – it was a man!”

Ffion was not expecting that

which causes her no little surprise.

Hywel arrives, rather uneasily, at the Deri

Hywel and Rhys come into the Deri, and Hywel goes to sit down, but notices Gaynor, and asks why she is hiding here.

"I've done enough work now"

She replies that she has done enough work for now,

"Why not do it at home?"

and he wonders why she is not working at home. She tries to change the subject, asking how Rhys managed to get his father out of the house.

"How many more 'sorries', Chester?"

Chester comes downstairs in a very apologetic mood, but Britt wants to know how many ‘sorries’ it will take before he stops doing this sort of thing.

Garry maintains that everything will be fine now

Garry assures her that from now on everything will be fine, as he has offered Chester a job.

"You've put your mother through hell!"

Colin, who is nearby, is still furious with Chester; “You’ve put your mother through hell – this has to stop!” he snarls,

"Leave it, Colin!"

but Garry rebukes him, then goes over to Hywel,

"I don't remember you protesting my innocence"

saying he is pleased to see him.

“I don’t remember you protesting my innocence when I was arrested,” Hywel tells him,

"I thought Garry was a friend"

“I thought Garry was a friend, but I know otherwise now.”

Garry points out, “It seemed to everyone that you were guilty, so what was I supposed to think?

"Put yourself in the same position"

“Put yourself in the same position – what would you have done?”

"Cadno found out about Alun, did she?"

Eifion has related the entire sordid tale, and Ffion assumes, “Cadno found out about Alun, did she? Was he the only one?”

"There were one or two others over the years"

Eifion confesses there were one or two others over the years, and she cannot believe it, but he protests that he is not gay.

"You've been having affairs with men for years!"

“But you’ve been having affairs with men for years,” she emphasises, but he urges her to stop labelling him, as that is all he has had from Iolo and Tyler for months.

"They keep telling me what to do . . ."

“You have to ‘come out’, you have to ‘be yourself’, they keep saying.

"They don't understand – I'm not gay!"

“They don’t understand – I’m not gay! I don’t know who or what I am – I’ve never felt so lost. I did love Cadno, you know – I used to feel urges – I couldn’t help it. I tried to hide them deep inside, but it was impossible.

"Me? Strong?"

“Look at me – I don’t know how you can be so strong, after everything that you’ve been through.”

"It's a nightmare!"

Ffion replies, “Believe me, I’m not strong. Being here every night, pondering my thoughts, is a nightmare.” She takes a deep breath

"I could do with the company – and so could you"

and suggests, “Why don’t you move in here? I could do with the company – and so could you.”

The first time Eifion has smiled for some weeks

Eifion actually smiles.

"Remember when I cooked vegetarian moussaka?"

Out in Llywncelyn’s garden, Sofia remembers Elgan cooking vegetarian moussaka for Nain Chwarel; “She said it was ideal for pig swill!” He tells her that the house is exactly the same as when Nain was there,

"I always imagined us with a house full of children"

and Sofia had always imagined the two of them living there, with a house full of children. At this point, Elgan wants to change the subject

Elgan goes to fetch the meal

and decides he had better fetch the meal.

"Sofia is there again for a meal"

Hywel enquires if Gaynor spoke to Elgan last night, and she points out that Sofia is there again for a meal;

"It's obvious they're meant to be together"

“It’s obvious that they’re meant to be together.” Hywel concludes that she is giving up, although she wants to be with him, but Gaynor is confused about the situation.

"I regret not giving Sheryl another chance"

He advises, “I regret not giving Sheryl another chance – if I had, she might still be here.

"Don't let him go so easily!"

“If you love him, don’t let him go so easily!”

"I'll kill Ricky when I see him!"

Non remarks to Mark, as they enter the Deri, “I’ll kill Ricky when I see him – and there is still no reply from DJ.”

"Glad you're back, Hywel"

Mark is pleased to see Hywel back, and just then, a message pops up on Non’s phone;

The long-awaited reply arrives on Non's phone . . .

“Please don’t cancel again. Tapas on Monday?”

. . .and she immediately responds to it

She is very pleased and replies immediately.

"What do you think you're doing?"

When Mark sees Ricky coming downstairs with Chester, he exclaims, “What do you think you’re doing? You promised you wouldn’t mix with this scumbag!” Ricky urges him to leave it, but his father announces to Britt that he is banned from seeing Chester.