Cwmderi Diary 2018: 28 August 2018

"What did you say?"

Garry asks, “What did you say?”

"She's not thinking straight"

and Gethin interrupts to explain that Dani is upset and is not thinking straight. “You’ve misunderstood everything,” Garry goes on, but she does not think she has, and refuses to give him the phone.

She is willing to listen to what he has to say;

"I'm staying until I know Dani's safe"

Garry wants Gethin out, but he will not move until he knows that Dani is safe. “I’d never hurt you, Dan, you know that,” Garry replies,

"Don't go far, Geth!"

“If you want an explanation, he has to go!” She asks Gethin not to go far, so he will be downstairs, and she only needs to shout.

"Don't you dare hurt her!"

He warns Garry not to dare hurt her.

"No problem – I'm only five minutes away"

Downstairs, in the bar, Kath is speaking on the phone in English; “It’s no problem – I’m only five minutes away.”

"There's a crisis at work"

She tells Julie that she has to go, giving the excuse that there is a crisis at work,

Gethin will not refuse Kath's pint

and asks Gethin to keep Julie company.

"I'm responsible for Sheryl's death"

Garry tries to explain, “I’m responsible for Cheryl’s death, but you don’t have to phone the police!”

"What – you're admitting it?"

Dani is furious and says that he has admitted it,

"It was my fault – it's not the same thing"

but he goes on, “I said it was my fault – it’s not the same thing – you don’t understand.” She demands that he is honest with her.

"I had no idea what Hywel was going to do!"

After a pause, he resumes, “I sent Hywel over there – I said Sheryl was leaving and taking Esther with her. I had no idea what he was going to do, honestly!

"If I'd kept my mouth shut, Sheryl would still be alive"

“But I’ve realised, if I’d kept my mouth shut, Sheryl would still be alive. She would have run away and started a new life in Ireland – been happy, perhaps. But, thanks to me . . .”

Kath shows her three new guests into Bryntirion; the girl flops down on to the sofa with her tablet, and the boy,

"What a dump!"

who is apparently called Calum, describes the house as a dump.

Kath rabbits on about Welsh architecture

Kath says that the house is typical Welsh architecture,

"What's the Wi-Fi code?"

but all Calum wants to know it is, “What’s the Wi-Fi code?”

“You’ll have to ask me an easier one than that, but I’ll find out for you,” Kath answers, and then shows them the ‘state of the art’ kitchen.

"DI Davies contacted me this morning"

In the Deri, Gethin takes Julie to a table, and she tells him that DI Davies contacted her this morning. “Why? Have they found new evidence?” he asks, rather concerned, but she replies that it was to enquire if Hywel could attend the funeral; of course she refused.

"Hywel sent Garry to put pressure on you"

“Everything makes sense now – Hywel sent Garry to put pressure on you – I know it!” Gethin insists, and she cannot bear thinking about him coming to say goodbye.

"I can't believe the nerve of the guy!"

“I can’t believe the nerve of the guy! Sometimes I don’t think he realises what he’s done!” Gethin tells her,

"No, he just doesn't care!"

but she is of the opinion that he just does not care.

Then her phone rings, and it is the last person she wants to talk to;

"Hiya, Wil, how are you, love?"

“Hiya, Wil,” she says, “How are you, love?”

"What's happened has messed me up!"

Garry’s explanation continues, “What’s happened has messed me up!” but Dani cannot see why, if all he did was to tell Hywel that Sheryl was leaving.

"I treated her badly"

He goes on, “That’s not all I’ve done – when Sheryl and I were together, I treated her badly. Perhaps if I hadn’t met her, she would still be alive. I know I’m not making any sense, because this is difficult for me –

"It's more difficult than I ever imagined'

“it’s more difficult than I ever imagined.”

"I'm going to give her a good slap!"

Julie hurries out of the Deri, and heads for Anita’s house; Gethin tries to calm her down, but is told that Anita is going to get a good slap. “She’s known for weeks, but she lied!” Gethin manages to convince her that she will only upset herself by arguing with Anita, and she should not do this to herself.

"Why didn't she tell the truth?"

“Why didn’t she tell the truth?” Julie demands.

He suggests, “Perhaps she didn’t want to disappoint you – she knew how much you wanted Wil to come to the funeral.

"Let me buy you another drink"

“Leave Anita alone for today, and let me buy you another drink.” She prefers go back to Maes-y-Deri.

Kath tries to flog her Uncle Dylan pub tour

Kath continues her hard sell; “If you change your mind, and you would like me to take you to where Uncle Dylan used to drink,”

"Boring!"

an outing which Calum describes as ‘boring’. “And the tour is a bargain – it’s only £50,” she adds, “And I will be getting you that Wi-Fi code –

"There's nothing better than fiddling with your phone!"

“after all, there’s nothing better than fiddling with your phone when you’re on holiday!”

"I'd been with a lot of women up in Newcastle"

“I’d been with a lot of women up in Newcastle, but nothing serious – nothing that lasted,” Garry continues, “Then we moved to Cwmderi, thanks to Britt – to keep me out of trouble, probably. A new area – new people –

"There she was – Sheryl Hughes"

“and there she was – Sheryl Hughes. There was something about her – not that we started seeing each other straightaway.

"She was with Darren, I don't know why"

“She was still with Darren, I don’t know why, though. But somehow we started going out together, and for the first time in my life,

"And then I spoilt everything!"

“I knew what it was to be happy – we were both happy. And then I spoilt everything – I always spoil everything.

"When she wouldn't listen, there was only one answer"

“I wanted to control her, tell her what to do and what not to do. And when she wouldn’t listen, there was only one answer – I hit her!”

"So you hit her because you loved her"

Dani comes over to sit by him; “So what you’re trying to say is, you hit her because you loved her,” but he insists that he did not want to hit her –

"I just couldn't help it!"

he just could not help it. She assures him that he has changed now; “You don’t hit me, do you?”

"I regret that more than everything else!"

He confesses that hitting Sheryl is the thing he regrets more than anything else in his life; “I was like poison to her – and after that, everything went wrong. She found Kevin – she thought that she loved him, and what did he do? He raped her!

He maintains that he is ultimately responsible

“And if he had not abused her, maybe she wouldn’t have turned to Moc. Wil might have stayed, and Sheryl would have been happy – and if she was happy, she would not have courted Hywel.”

"None of this is your fault, Garry!"

Dani is quite adamant that none of this is his fault, but he explains to her this is how he feels; She tries to convince him, “It was Cheryl’s decision to deceive Hywel – it was her decision to have an affair with Gethin –

"That's what Sheryl was like!"

“that is what Sheryl was like. She thought the grass was greener on the other side – always looking for something that wasn’t there! I know it!”

Gethin and Julie are at Maes-y-Deri

Kath returns to Maes-y-Deri to find Julie and Gethin there.

"Sara was panicking about something!"

She lies that Sara was panicking, because she could not find some coats or something;

"Why were you speaking posh – in English?"

and Julie wonders, “Why were you speaking English to Sara? All that posh talk on the phone – who were you trying to impress?” Gethin joins in, suspecting that it was a man, and wants to know his name.

"An Englishman – at my age?"

“You think I’ve got a man – an Englishman – at my age? Come on!” Kath replies, then looks out of the window

"The undertakers are here"

and announces that the undertakers have arrived, with the coffin. Julie tells Gethin that Sheryl is coming to stay with them tonight,

Gethin finds this rather unsettling

which he does not look any too happy about.

"It's grief – longing – loss"

“I’m sorry about grieving for someone I used to love years ago,” says Garry, “A feeling of longing, loss, whatever you want to call it. It’s grief – that’s what’s made me behave like this – and I don’t understand it – I can’t get my head around it.”

Poor Dani is increasingly confused

Dani is looking very troubled, as he continues, “How can I be so happy with you and yet feel so much loss and guilt about Sheryl?

"That's why I wanted to go to America"

“That’s why I wanted to go to America – I thought going away would stop me feeling like this. That not seeing the flowers or hearing the rumours would you help me move on. I didn’t sleep a wink in the hotel on Friday –

"I realised I had to come home"

“I went to the airport, I queued up, got to the desk – and that’s when I realised I had to come home, face everything and be honest – with you, more than anyone. I wanted to tell you the truth from the start, but . . .”

"There's always a but, Garry!"

After listening to him, Dani comments that there is always a ‘but’. He was scared that she would not believe him; “And then Rhys came back and said that I’d framed Hywel.

"I don't want this to come between us"

“I love you, Dan – so much, the last thing I want is for this to come between us.” After a long pause, Dani says that she is going to check on Seren.

The coffin dominates the room . . .

At Maes-y-Deri, the coffin, laden with flowers, is installed;

. . . and Gethin cannot stand it

Gethin is very uneasy, and protesting that he cannot stay there, he rushes out of the house. Julie knows that it is very difficult for him;

"He thought the world of Sheryl"

“He thought the world of Sheryl. But, unlike him, I can’t run away, can I, Kath?

"As her mother, I have to be here"

“As her mother, I have to be here.”

Gethin walks past the chippy . . .

Gethin walks sadly past the chippy and stops outside the salon;

. . . looks at the flowers . . .

he looks at the flowers

. . . bows his head . . .

and lowers his head, before standing up

. . . and walks away . . .

and retracing his steps.

. . . which Garry finds suspicious

At the upstairs window of the Deri, Garry is watching him, suspiciously, then he turns to Dani and asks if Seren is all right.

"Are we all right?"

“Are we all right?” he adds, and she replies that she understands, but does not know if she forgives him. “For grieving for Sheryl?” he queries.

"You don't trust me enough to be honest with me"

“No – for not trusting me enough to be honest with me,” she laments,

"I could have helped you!"

“If you had said this from the start, I could have helped you, instead of wasting time doubting you. Look, Hywel has ruined everyone’s lives, not just Sheryl’s. But we can’t let him ruin this marriage –